Tuesday, February 17, 2009


Tonight I found Mom's journal from 2004 to 2005. Very interesting. She mentions our visit to her doctor where we discussed her memory issues. She wrote " slight memory loss, may be alzhimers (sic)". Interesting. Once she moved in with me the journaling really dropped off but when she did write it was very cryptic. My poor Mommy. She mentions numerous times that she missed me when she was living alone. I'm so glad that we moved in together and that I was able to care for her and keep her company. It still is surprising to me just how quickly she declined.

I spoke to the lawyer today. She told me not to lose sleep, the situation was fixable. I told her the sleep had already been lost.

I also met with my therapist. She suggested taking a break as I seem to be coping well with Mom's death. I miss her so much but I know she is whole again and Alzheimer's can no longer hurt her or the rest of us.


~Betsy said...

Oh Robyn - what a treasure to find your mom's journal! That's wonderful!

I'm also glad to see your attorney's advice. That's a relief.

Hang in there. (((((hugs)))))

¸.•*´)ღ¸.•*´Chris said...

I'm glad too you were able to be together to ride this journey out. I think we are blessed for being able to do that for our loved ones.

I feel the same way you do about AD not being able to hurt the ones we love any longer. They are safe from harm now, even though we miss them terribly, they still live in in our hearts.

Diana said...

How wonderful to have found your mother's journal! What a treasure!

You might be interested in reading my latest memoir, REGINA'S CLOSET: FINDING MY GRANDMOTHER'S SECRET JOURNAL which is based on finding my grandmother's journal almost 40 years after her death. It is available on Amazon.

As a journaling advocate and journaling instructor I really considered it to be one of life's greatest gifts.

Diana Raab
web -- http://www.dianaraab.com
blog -- www.dianaraab.wordpress.com

Homeopath said...

Just found your blog..... Interesting.....I’ll be back to read more.

jutka said...

I'm glad Robyn about your Mom's journal. She'll be in your heart forever. Tomorrow will be a year of my dear husband's passing, also by Alzheimer's, but the time feels so much shorter than the 12 months. I cherish every little thing that was left from him. Sometimes I even talk to him, I know he's with me.

flintysooner said...

I agree with the therapist and I always like it when lawyers say things are fixable.

nancy said...

what a wonderful gift to have found your mom's journal. thinking of you.

Joanne said...

How wonderful that you found your mom's journal. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))

Esther Altshul Helfgott said...

you've given me an idea for some of Abe's writings. So glad you have your mom's journal. Interesting that she wrote less when she was with you. The importance of writing as companion

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