Wednesday, December 3, 2008

My heart is heavy tonight. I spoke with the hospice social worker and asked about Mom's deep sleep and disinterest in eating. She said that in patients with dementia this sometimes signifies the brain and the body shutting down. This is very hard for me to hear. But as my sister would say, it is what it is. Mom doesn't want to live this way, I know that for a fact.

She was sleeping tonight when I stopped by. Sleeping deeply, but she awoke when I whispered in her ear. I asked her if she wanted to get up and eat some dinner and she said yes and then she said no and fell back to sleep. She roused a few times and even spoke my name. I turned on 'Everybody Loves Raymond' but even that didn't rouse her. I stayed for a while and she continued to sleep. I feel so sad.

6 comments:

Annie said...

Robyn, I'm so sorry. Hugs and peace to you.

Lily said...

It is very sad, but I hope you take comfort in the very peaceful, gentle way your mum is slowly leaving the world.

~Betsy said...

Even if your mom doesn't talk with you, she knows you're there. Don't forget that. (((((hugs)))))

Cinnamin said...

I too am sad to read your post tonight. I agree with Betsy, your Mom DOES know that you are there with her. You know, this disease is so unpredictable, this may only be a temporary behavior, and may not mean anything significant at all. Back on the roller coaster...You are in my thoughts and prayers, Robyn.

cornbread hell said...

:(

jutka said...

I'm thinking back how my dear husband was sleeping on and off sitting in his recliner during daytime, but he wasn't sleeping very deeply, because he woke up when I spoke to him. He was sometimes agitated, mainly he wanted to go for a ride, but he was eating well until the last 10 days of his life, when he was in the hospital with pneumonia, and was fed intravenously. But he never took any medication for Alzheimer's after the few tries that had changed his behavior.
I think the medication that is given to your Mom has a lot to do with her deep sleeping.