Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Tomorrow's Another Day

My visit to the memory facility has been postponed until tomorrow. I'm anxious to see the vacancies but at the same time I'm nervous. The decision to move Mom is going to be momentous; whether I make it now or later. My friend Beth-Ann pointed out that it's difficult for me to see Mom's decline (I refuse to call it a progression) because I see her every day. Talking with her this morning seemed to turn on a light bulb for me, one that has been in denial. I'm trying to stay in the moment with this and take it one step at a time. As Rick said, it's important to move Mom while she can still experience some of the benefits of a memory care facility. My head knows what must be done, but my heart is still trying to catch up. And unfortunately I think a lot with my heart.

Today I ordered an Alzheimer's Champions hoodie from the Alzheimer's Association website. It's purple, my favorite color, and it's for a good cause.

I wasn't able to watch the PBS program on Caring for Your Parents, but I noticed that they will have it available to view online beginning tomorrow so I will watch it that way. Tonight we watched the Osmond Family 50th Anniversary on DVD. Mom really enjoyed that and she marveled that 'that woman (Marie) has so many brothers!' Mom kept counting all of them when they were onstage. It was cute.

Our snow from Monday's storm has nearly melted away. I can't wait for my strawberries to arrive so that I can begin planting them. Goodbye Winter!


cornbread hell said...

i'm sure it's a very good thing that you let your heart guide you, robyn.

i was able to watch the show myself. between the tears i even saw most of it.

Say It Out Loud said...

My grandmother was from Mankato, and I have a favorite aunt who lives In Coon Rapids...I feel your pain...I can't imagine having to put my dad (who has vascular dementia) in a home/care facility...

PLZ send in a postcard...SHAMELESS PLUG

~Betsy said...

Sending ((hugs)) your way, Robyn. I understand thinking with your heart - I think so many of us caretakers do so. Hang in there.

Joanne said...

I can understand what you're going through, Robyn. It's a difficult decision especially when we think with our hearts. I haven't mentioned it on my blog (haven't blogged lately) but I had an extremely difficult decision placing Mom in an ALF this past Monday just for a two week respite care for myself. I missed the show, so I'm glad you posted the link. Hugs and love to you, Robyn. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.