Sunday, August 31, 2008


I've had to call in reinforcements to help me toilet Mom. Thank God for Elizabeth. She is an angel.

I have been worrying about Mom's adjustment to the ALF. I'm afraid she is going to 'flunk out' and have to come home or that she is going to hate it there and be angry and mad at me. If I can survive the next 2 weeks and continue to pray for Mom's adjustment to the ALF it will be a miracle. Please God let this adjustment go relatively well. I know she will receive better care there. If she will accept it. Outside of toileting, she is wonderful and tells all her caregivers that she loves them. Especially after the turmoil in the bath.

It's so hard to hear her say that she wants to die. I love her so much that this just rips my heart to pieces. But I don't like seeing her losing her dignity like this.


~Betsy said...

I think your mom may feel a little out of sorts when she first moves, but will eventually settle in. I also think she will probably like her new surroundings. Please don't beat yourself up, Robyn. You're doing the best you can with what you have been dealt. Hang in.

rilera said...

Betsy, you are an angel. Thank you for being here for me.

Annie said...

Robyn, my admiration for you continues to grow. Thinking about you!

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