Thursday, October 16, 2008

I attended the family support group last night at CB. There were 5 of us plus the Life Enrichment Coordinator. It was nice to meet others who have loved ones at CB. They all seemed to know Mom and I have met many of their loved ones. There was only one other child who attended. Her father is a resident at CB. After the group met, I went and spent time with Mom who was very agitated. She was shaking, which is something she has done over the past few years, but last night it was much more extreme. I was worried that one of her new meds might be causing these tremors. I spoke with one of the nurses who had also observed the tremors and she felt that it was due to anxiety because it seemed to get worse when she was anxious. I'm not sure about this and will continue to observe her. Poor Mom, she was quite upset last night. I worry about her even though I am told that she is settling in nicely.

I have been sleeping through the night and it has made a big difference in my physical and mental health. Tonight I went shopping after work; something that I haven't done in years. I still feel guilty about enjoying time by myself, but I'm getting better about that. Everyone has told me that Mom seems to enjoy the different activities at CB and she always smiles and shows affection to the caregivers. It's just when I come on the scene, she gets upset and agitated. So I try to limit my visits, at least for now.

Mom's cat Olivia has taken to acting weird. She will play with her mouse in the bathtub and she will vocalize for no reason. She wakes me up around 3 or 4 in the morning by licking my face and biting my bracelets. She's very territorial around Lily too, trying to keep Lily away from me. However, I'm Lily's person and she will not tolerate being kept from me. And I won't tolerate not having her around me. I love Olivia very much, but Lily is my baby. We have a special bond. I have a bond with Olivia too, but it's different. I love them both, they are great kitties.


Annie said...

Robyn, you have nothing to feel guilty about, so stop it. I know, if only it were that easy. Really though, go out and enjoy yourself, you deserve it.

Joanne said...

I remember feeling guilty about enjoying going out shopping in the evening when Mom was at the ALF for my respite time. It's easy to feel that way, but try not to, Robyn. Your mom would want you to enjoy things as you used to.

It sounds as though she's settling in very well. One of these days I'll get the courage to look into facilities as you have. You've done wonderful with your mom.

~Betsy said...

I agree with the others - you deserve some Robyn time right now. You're a wonderful daughter, but you still need to enjoy yourself!

If you're worried about the tremors, why not put a call into her doctor? It could be anxiety as the nurse said, but it could also be from a medication. Trust your gut.

flintysooner said...

I am so glad you are getting some sleep. That does make such a huge difference. It is good to have others to help shoulder the burden of trying to help with tremors and other conditions that occur.


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