Monday, September 10, 2007
Deception. That's another thing I'm not good at. And with AD there is a lot of deception. Trying to get Mom to go to daycare involves a lot of deception. I haven't mentioned it at all tonight. Tomorrow I'm going to go to work as usual and Joyce will show up (will Mom remember her?), take her to daycare and drop her off. Under normal circumstances, this would seem ludicrous, but AD is not normal. Sometimes it's hard to separate the AD Mom from the normal Mom. I feel like I'm betraying her by 'forcing' her to go to this place. I hope that she won't be angry with me or feel abandoned. Will her confusion cause her to feel alone and abandoned? God I HATE AD! These are the times when I want to be the Disney Land daughter, the one with whom Mom only has good times. There is no deception or betrayal. Let go and let God, Robyn.