Monday, September 10, 2007

Deception. That's another thing I'm not good at. And with AD there is a lot of deception. Trying to get Mom to go to daycare involves a lot of deception. I haven't mentioned it at all tonight. Tomorrow I'm going to go to work as usual and Joyce will show up (will Mom remember her?), take her to daycare and drop her off. Under normal circumstances, this would seem ludicrous, but AD is not normal. Sometimes it's hard to separate the AD Mom from the normal Mom. I feel like I'm betraying her by 'forcing' her to go to this place. I hope that she won't be angry with me or feel abandoned. Will her confusion cause her to feel alone and abandoned? God I HATE AD! These are the times when I want to be the Disney Land daughter, the one with whom Mom only has good times. There is no deception or betrayal. Let go and let God, Robyn.

4 comments:

~Betsy said...

I was never very good at the deception either, but I'm getting better. I still haven't mastered it thought.

Hang in there. You don't know how things will go until you try. Your mom may absolutely love it and your concerns will be for nothing. I pray things go well for you and yours today. Keep us posted.

Unknown said...

I'm not very good at it either.

I always remember that story in the Bible about Rahab. She lied to protect the lives of the Israeli spies. That was accounted to her as faith. She placed their life and her own service to God first.

You're doing the right thing for your loved one. You're being true to yourself and to her.

rilera said...

I suppose you are both right; deception for good is better than deception for evil. And this is definitely good for Mom. My friend calls these little white lies.

~Betsy said...

I prefer the term "fiblet" :)

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