I'm very scared about change, especially where Mom and I are concerned. I know I'm starting to lose it but I don't want to face the inevitable. My family is so important to me. Once I lose Mom I'm afraid that I will be lost. I love her so much. I can't imagine my life without her. It was hard enough to lose my dad, he and I were very close. Mom has been my best friend for so long. It hurts not being able to share everything with her, ask her for advice and just do what mothers and daughters do together. It is so hard watching this awful disease steal our mother away. This house is going to be lonely when she moves out. I need my sister and brother.
I still have my cold and cough. I felt awful this morning and stayed home. They must think I'm a total slacker at work. I have a doctor's appointment on Friday. It's hard to fall asleep at night with the wheezing.